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I hate that all these people are trying to fuck with me lately. They don't realize how badly they're hurting me. They don't realize that I have feelings too, that I'm a person just like you. There's no difference between you and me, in the end we're just people, we're all the same. We all have feelings, we're all hurting by something or some one inside, we all long to be loved, we all long to be accepted, we're all looking for who we truly are inside, trying to find that person who we really are. Some of us are being untrue to ourselves, untrue to others. We make ourselves out to be something we are not, something we wish we could be, but we will never become. We try to find true friends, but most just turn out to be nothing but pain. They hurt us in ways that we never thought we could feel, in ways unimaginable until you feel the pain and know what its like. We ourselves are not true friends but only to those few who touch our lives in the most significant way possible. We all may think we are true friends, but we are not. At one time or another we do something hurtful, even to the friend who means the most to you, you may say things behind their backs, or tell them something more hurtful than the world, but in the end we are all the same, hurtful creatures. No matter how hard we try not to hurt a soul, to be the nicest person in the world, we will never be that because there will always be that one person who you hurt. That one person who you changed their life for the worst, but then there's always that one person who you helped, the one person who you made their life the best it could be, then there's that one person who you are untrue to, who knows you are untrue but does nothing to change that, this last person is yourself, you have nothing until you are true to yourself. You can have all the friends in the world, but unless you are true to yourself you will never learn to be true to your friends or your peers, in the end we will never change. You cannot change the person who you truly are inside, you can change it on the outside but inside no matter what you do, you will never be able to change.
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