I'm losing it all, I'm losing control, the people around me have abandoned me, left me all alone. This is not the way I wanted it to be, this is not the way I expected it to be, but its just the way it turned out to be. I cannot help myself anymore, I cannot help you anymore, I cannot do anything anymore. I feel like a child, a lost child, searching for where they belong, for where they came from, not knowing what to expect next, barely knowing what was behind. I need to be helped, I need someone there behind me, but I cant find anyone who cares, who I can trust who I can believe in, I cannot find the right one. Maybe I'm just looking in all the wrong places, maybe they're right in front of me and I don't even realize it, or maybe that one person isn't there, maybe that one person is unwilling to help me. I cannot help myself, I cannot help you, I'm lost, lost in this world not of my own
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